Hiya everyone! Just before I get into this post, I thought I’d mention that I recently started a Youtube channel! I upload every Sunday (and maybe have some surprise videos as and when) so chances are, you’ve missed a cheeky upload! Please go and subscribe and show me love because it’s scary business!
If any of you guys have been with me for around a year, you’ll know I went to a university in Manchester last year and dropped out after two weeks due to my mental health undergoing a complete relapse. Fast forward a year, I’m going back. Not to that particular university, but to another – more local so I can stay at home but still pursue my degree.
I thought I’d do an update. It’s terrifying because I wasn’t sure if my relapse was a cause of moving so far away from home and being completely alone or whether it was university itself. So I took a complete risk going back to another. Like who knows if my mental health would take a repeat turn and I’d be back where I was last year.
I’m writing this around 3 and a half weeks into my university degree, so not technically a month, but I like being prepared for blog posts haha! In all honesty, I’m loving it. Truly loving it.
It’s all a little overwhelming because last year I had dropped out by now so this is all a little … different. I feel like I’m on a school trip or on holiday and that I’m going to return to the norm of college and sitting doing nothing at home soon but I know I’m not. I still live at home so I am technically still able to sit at home doing nothing but that “doing nothing” has been replaced with extensive reading and writing a lot.
So nothing really has changed. I’m sure within a month or so on top of this time, things will change a lot. I’ll have exams and strict deadlines to abide by and for now, I don’t really have anything of that nature.
At the end of the day, am I glad I went back to university? Yes. One hundred and ten percent, yes. I don’t regret it. I love the subject I am doing and I love going to university every day (well most, I only go three days a week) with the hope of having an amazing degree out of it.
I just wanted to give you guys a quick update because I know a lot of you have followed my journey through the mental health relapse and me reapplying to university again and may want to know how I’m doing. If you do want to do that, I have a weekly vlog series up at the moment where I document my university experience. At the moment, I’m only planning to do that until the New Year but if people like it enough, I may continue it! Just let me know!