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I thought because fathers day is fast approaching here in the UK, I’d do a little post dedicated to my father. I doubt he’ll see this at all but I love him very dearly and I think that should be broadcasted.
As I’m sure most of you know, my mother passed away in August 2014 which was traumatic to say the least for myself and everyone involved. This obviously meant that my father had to take of the paternal and the maternal role from this way forward. I mean I could’ve easily coped without a maternal role but I still had so much growing up to do that I would have struggled without one.
My dad helped me with all sorts of stuff. He was who I went to for boy problems, period shit and what have you. I know many people think it’s super weird that I can speak to my dad about absolutely everything under the sun, but it’s because I had no one else to speak about that stuff with. I grew up as the only daughter in the family so I have no sisters AT ALL to speak to about all that jazzy stuff. My father was the only option.
It’s not like I hold him against his will with all that shit either. He doesn’t cringe when I mention my period like I know many a men do. He was infact the person I went to when I wanted to go on the pill, and still the person I went to when I questioned whether to have the coil implanted or not.
My dad is my favourite person. He is there when I’m balling my eyes out at 11pm when he just got back from work, he is there when I come home smashed at 4am on the weekend and he is there through every joke and fun time too.
I’m aware so so many people aren’t lucky enough to have a father figure in their life. I am super aware I am blessed to have a father that loves me, provides for me and is there by my side. I am aware of that. I am just so happy that I have mine because honestly, I have no clue where I’d be without him.
I don’t want to get too mushy because I’m not that sort of girl hahaha but I would probably be in a worse state without my father here. He was the first person I told about my anxiety and self harm addiction. He was the first person I told when I was going through my relapse at university and he didn’t judge me. In fact, I don’t think any of my family or friends did, unless it was behind my back. And I’m so so grateful for that.
Bottom line of this blog post is I’m so happy. There’s no one I look up to more than the way I look up to my dad. I know if I become half the person my dad is, then I know I’m a great person.