Everything is going to be fine. I know you’re dealing with so so SO much shit right now but believe me it’s going to be fine.
You’ll be able to find happiness soon enough and all of these troubles you’re struggling with will almost be gone. No more starving. No more crying yourself to sleep. No more self pity.
I know you are thinking that everything will always be this way but believe me it’s not. You’re not going to get the help you deserve but it’s okay. You deserve all the help in the world but no one wants to give it to you. As I’m writing this you are finally being offered therapy for everything. It’s about 4 years too late but you’re grateful. So grateful because you know that you’re still not okay but you can’t help but think you don’t deserve it because the NHS and every therapy place you got referred to just ignored your application or just didn’t want to help you.
But you’re probably so happy you finally got therapy.
Be kinder to yourself, love. You’re capable of so much and you don’t even have the foggiest idea of it. You are enough and fuck anyone
don’t actually who tells you or makes you think otherwise.
You’ll finish college and you will go to university. I know you don’t think you’ll do that because you aren’t clever enough. But you’re working so hard to achieve what you want and that’s something to be proud of.
You’re not where you want to be yet but you’re getting there. Soon you’ll be able to say that in a few years you’ll be okay and I hope that’s enough for you.